অটোয়া, সোমবার ২৭ জুন, ২০২২
O My God! -Amal Roy

Many people around me often wonder –
If I believe in God;
Sometimes, some of them, derogatorily –
Designated me as an atheist.
But, to tell you all the truth –
At their wondering about my God –
I myself often wonder too –
What do they actually mean by God? 

I want politely to ask those people –
If they do mean a personal God, 
Like a human being?
If they answer “yes” to this –
Then my next question is –
What about other lives in this Earth then?
If they also start wondering about the same?
Would they not wonder –
If God looks like one of them?
Would not an ant think –
God is a giant ant like her?
Would not a lion also think –
God looks like a monstrous lion like him?
Would not a tigress think –
God looks like a much bigger tigress like her?
Also, is it not that a cobra may think –
God is something like a serpent?
Is not this logic plain enough to understand?

Is the reason for humans’ thinking –
Based on the notion that-
They are superior compared to other beings-
So, God should be looking like them?
Do humans feel superior to other species –
Because they possess a larger brain?
If that’s the case, then the logical question is –
hy do they do all the crazy things?
So, that logic of their self-declared superior status –
Does not stand in the sense of concrete logic;
Because in true sense you can’t be your own judge.

So, if people think of a personal God-
Then logically God could look like–
One of the one trillion species of the Earth – 
Which ultimately does not make any sense.
However, despite the fact, at the end of the day –
All humans are free to think of God as they wish.
And, I don’t have any problem with that.
But, unfortunate the problem arises always– 
When someone insists others –
To believe in what s/he thinks is absolutely right.

As you all think of God,
To let you know –
As you do –
I myself also often think of my God too.
But, my thought about God, my concept about God –
A bit different than some of you.
My God is not like an ant, lion, tiger, snake or human either;
That God does not live in or occupy a particular space in this universe;
That God is not a being like you and me,
Also, my God is not a God as all religions describe.
I wonder, if a religious leader can invent a God,
Then why not all humans create their own one –
Rather than blindly believing in a prescribed form? 

And to let you know –
I have got a God too as you do,
But, my God is not a person at all-
To me, my God is the essence of this cosmos-
Which resided into a vast condensed form of energy- 
As condensed as it could be –
which is beyond human imagination.
And, as this condensed energy exploded and expanded –
Became the source of all cosmic manifestations.
As we know from the physical law –
Energy can be transformed into matter as well – 
And energy can also attain various forms – 
But, ultimately it has no destruction.
This whole energy that prevails into this vast cosmos –
Is my ultimate God!
This God is the energy in each atom of the whole cosmos.
This God is the energy within a single celled amoeba –
To all the gigantic extinct dinosaurs.
This God is not the creator of this universe –
But, this God itself is this infinite multiverse.
As this God is a pure energy –
It always resides in you and me, and in every atom –
Of all inanimate and animate beings.
About that God, I feel like –
One can invoke that Energy-God within one-self –
Towards one’s own benefit If one desires and needs.

And as my God is not a person,
So, my God does not possess any emotions –
Thus, that God does not care –
If a human or an animal or a plant cares God at all.
My God does not care if you love or hate thee;
My God does not care –
If you bow down to it or become callous of it;
That God does not care if I live or die;
Even maybe, that God is not aware that I exist;
So, that God does not care –
About my worship or prayer,
As such I can’t think of a God –
That would arrange a reward or punishment –
As we all are destined to death.
My God is not one who has created any heaven or hell,
Rather my God is the whole cosmos itself –
Where all is governed through a Cosmic Law.
As we don’t fully understand it yet –
We may call it a Mystic Law.
My God is the sound and vibrations –
My God is the ultimate energy and force,
My God is one the God of science,
Which one day in the future –
I think, scientists will be able to precisely define.

Amal Roy
April 24, 2022
Iqaluit, Nunavut, Canada